To whom it may concern:
Ma’am, how come you were able to break my self-esteem regarding on my genuineness to other people? How come you were able to prove that you can’t please everyone? How come you had marked my worth as not significant? How come it is so easy for you to remain high yet you can still say things that make you look polite? If it’s not for them I won’t bother to ask. If it’s not for them I won’t be moved. This is not usual for me, that is why I admire your attitude for being so assured that everything is better left not be fix to be okay. One thing that I am hoping for is to have the acceptance that not all people are good. And being bad is enough reason for you to care less. But I think His teaching is more influential than agony..
Sir, I just noticed that you are so neglectful that even the foremost reasons for each issue are being abandoned and never resolved. Have you forgotten that you said terrible things that put someone into a place that she almost lost her faith? And one thing Sir, I just want to ask where is your confidence coming from? I have once envy you for imposing this position that you have done nothing wrong and you are also just a victim. But now, I pity you. Upon thinking, I’m much better. Because I still know how to remain high for not be drowned to malevolence and able to keep myself low for the modesty that I cannot have it all.
Ma’am, why can’t you be proud of me? Are you hiding me into your world? Why are you so indolent and afraid to explain things involving me? Am I not worthy for the revelation and reasons? Why are you too weak to make a stand? Why are you too coward to act on your belief? I’m just puzzled on how you reacted. I can still feel that I have your friendship but I also feel that you are trying to keep things on a safe zone. And what puzzled me more is that, whom you are protecting? And with this, I cried. With your every actions and lame reasons make me move 2 steps away from you. You're just too weak to protect your friend, but too courageous to grasp misguided deed of one of your blood. But with each experience with you made me feel thankful and blessed for what I have and what I don’t. For who I am and for who I’m not.
Sir, I don’t like you. I’m really apologetic for not liking my own and seeing only side that I am not fond of. Maybe I’m still attached to norms. But I can see how insincerely you are. I love Him and I am afraid of Him, that’s why I am into this embarrassment of not trusting His man. I’m really sorry for this. I know I am not perfect but I’m trying to be better. And I am hoping that someone like you would be my outlet for my spiritual growth. But Sir, I have this great belief that humility and honesty is along with every conveyer of His beauty. As His man, sanctity should be seen, not just by words but also in actions.
Inquisitive,
Me
