Once again FS.

It’s a new day, and I can’t still find the drowsiness for me to sleep. And because of wanting to find my lethargy and thinking that I might find it on the internet, I spent an hour reading and reading those entries that I made and were given to me on a site that people tend to visit before (when it was on its craze).  Aw.. I just realized, I missed my account’s content. I missed the testimonials that have been given. I missed the layouts. I missed FRIENDSTER! =p

Maybe one of the reasons why I could not find the courage to deactivate my account on that networking site (though I seldom visit it) is because of the different matter contained within it.  From my “about me” and testimonials given by friends from all level of life, from different occasion and happenings that my existence aboard, school days, it all matter!

Let me share some part of it here ^__^

About me: (who am i??)

Passing the board exam. (indeed, issa was more excited when she heard the news, i was sleeping then and boom! text brigade it was. haha.)

Birthday! (she's a college friend, and after transferring to another school i never expected that she will remember such event like this. how thoughtful.)

                            

Elementary pals (this men, my gulay! they never forget how to annoy me. im one of the guys ika nga nila, that's why they never treated me like a girl! haha!)

                             

                            

High school (never really expected these testi actually, i thought we were just being casual. hehe. but after the event we've made a good friendship.)

College (this is where we started. i can honestly say that i have been very transparent to my college friends, accepted or not, i didn't care. but in the end i realized, positive or not, i was understood.)

Upon browsing it again I just realized, maybe there’s one thing facebook can’t give to me. The gladness I feel every time I read those testi and those comments that have been posted. Oh yeah, it’s nice to see that whenever you put up something unto your wall, someone will like or give an opinion about it. But describing who you are (be on a negative or positive side) is much more moving (for me I guess) than agreeing to someone’s opinion. Perhaps because of that confirmation you will be able to learn the reflection that you have carried on the different mirror of your life. Or simply because, who I am, for me, it is significant. ♥_♥

Homecoming.

Trees swing in harmony as gust of wind continues to pass through the window. While chirping birds create a melody the dawn begins to arrive.

Dazzle spreads; the girl dwelling from slumber is awakened by the rays of light that struck her.  As she open her eyes, the unusual bright welcomed her. Looking everywhere waiting for a familiar sight, she found none.  Looking at her hands, the chain that tied her is broken. Watching at the wide sky, the dark atmosphere she commonly gaze up is replaced by clouds soaked in a blue stream. Looking over the room; the door that has been closed for like century is now inviting her to see the other side of the chamber. She’s certain, it’s a new place.

Trying to find companion she wander in the endless road. Taking every step ahead of her, with no direction, she doesn’t feel lost. The unfamiliarity gave her comfort.  

She run, until her lungs started to fill out air swiftly. She screams, until her body pleaded her to halt. Lying under the boundless firmament, she laughs until tears immerse her eyes.

As tears continue to flow, she fathom; she’s not a stranger lying in the infinite sky. She’s not a visitor running with no direction. She’s not an alien screaming for attention.  For indeed she’s in the right place. Taking a deep breath she felt confidence, existing in darkness might blinded her to see light; Living in chains may perhaps cease her from moving. But after being trap into a black hole, at long last, she’s home. Finally, she’s freed.

Ahead of my time

It’s August! And I’m really excited when the month comes. (Yeah, because my birthday falls under it. Hehe.) And while occupying myself in the thought (Sta. Monica of Savage Garden is on the background) men.. The thinking just diverted from excitement to a deep idea on what will I be on the future, on what I really want to be..

This is me. Always dwelling on thinking what’s store for me, and like with the others, uncertainty and fear are there. Having this masters program is my way to reach my goal, but being in school right now gives me so much fright, and it sucks my energy too much that whenever I have a free day my body tends to be on lethargy. (in short tinatamad ako magaral sa bahay. Haha!)

Anyway, back to the question, what I want to be in the future???

I want to be a..

Traveler—I want to see the wonders in every site that God has made. I want to seize sunset in every wonderful place. I want to visit Venice and try the Gondola ride. I want to be in Korea and see their autumn; I want to be in Singapore to witness their regulation. I want to be on Greece to see Athens, the place of their deity’s history. I want to witness the world =)

Musician—playing different instrument is cool. I want to learn how to play piano, and still sharpen my skills in organ and guitar. I also want to continue what I have learned on being a drummer. O yeah, I love music though it seems like it doesn’t love me back.

Astronomer—Hell. I just love the galaxy, the stars the moon. And I know being an astronomer is a way to be near on observing more of them. I just want to see the nebula, the aurora, and the different spectacle a light could make. I want to lie down under the infinite stars.  Staring at them makes my body to hibernate. =D

Adventurer—I’m into sports. But I like to have more! (greedy. Hehe) Just want to try action that will make my body to be bone tired. Extreme sports maybe.. Racing for instance, woah! I want to go fast!

Researcher—I want to be on a research field maybe because of the title. I want to be called a scientist. Haha! Yeah, it does mean that I want to be on FNRI-DOST. I also want to be on DOH and more be on WHO! (aim high aby! lol.) perhaps its on my blood as a nutritionist. I want to perceive how health affects the society and be able to make an impact on change.

Writer—I am a blogger. And since I’m not really a talker, writing for me is relieving. Black and white serves as my conveyor to the outside world, and I think doing it can make me express myself more and be understood further. I want to be on a magazine or any health portion article.

Nutritionist—be on Fonterra! Haha. Men.. Having this master’s degree for nutrition is because of that dream of involvement. I just want to be an effective nutritionist, teach part-time but still working on a corporate world. I just want to earn a lot of money and still practicing my profession. MONEY! lol.

I want to be more. 

More, but never forgets who made her. More, but still can look back where she came from. More, but feet are still on the ground. =)