Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Bon Voyage

Another first time, and up to know I don’t know how I am going to deal with it.

Life is short, and with what happened, I realized that the maxim is true. You will never know when will be your last laugh, your last cry, your last breathe. Up from this moment, his enthusiasm is the only thing I could envision. And not accepting perhaps is due to what I used to see, that “dying” is intended more for the old ones, and never given a thought that it is really inevitable that even young people can’t deny it.

Actually until now I feel guilty. Maybe as friends we used not to communicate that often, and as me, the one who always awaits for the text got it all wrong this time. Upon waiting for him to remember me, I wasn’t able to think that maybe, it’s him who waits for me to do the retention. And I sucked. Really, I don’t know if I’m selfish for not wanting him to go or I’m just unready for his departure. But either, I don’t have a choice but to face the fact that a friend died. My friend died.

Chuva, for all the annoyance that you had brought, for all the tears you caused because of the undying laughter, for all the hardship that we exerted every time we grouped ourselves in every activity, friend I salute you. You taught me how to aim high and never be discouraged by the things around me. By imparting courage, you enlighten me to go after my goals. And thank you. Now, the only person I know who have the same thought and dreams like mine has already gone, but your memories that have been engraved to my mind would live forever. You may never know how much I love you. But I think you know that being your friend is one of the colorful things happened in my college years. Thank you and goodbye..





Friday, June 25, 2010

Unknown Clash

Moving around on a crowdie corner
Carrying strength for an unjustly battle
Trying to fight on people’s rage
She filled herself with bulk of faith.

Settled to finish the fuzzy race
She endured to move from every place
Looking for something to make her whole
She faced her crusade with full of hope.

Fighting and living day by day
Brawling until she feel strained
Believing that a warrior is who she is
She forgot to deem why she exist.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Here I am University

Enrollment is now closed. Finally! After 5 days of wandering fom UPD and UPM I had my official list of subjects that I need to have for this sem.

My gulay. Enrolling at UPD really gave me this exhaust that I’d never had when I was at PUP. Strolling at different buildings for you to have the required subjects. Look for your own elective. Choosing where will you get it. My.. BIRTH PAIN!! Glad that I can finally say that I’m done with that..

Student again. After 2 years of drifting from work to relaxation. Honestly I’m not really excited on what I’ll be facing. It’s more of a worry. Because I know that ill be dealing with different professionals under our field. And I’m just scared. The more I feel frightened because of self-doubt, the more stupid I become. I’m just nervous that I might not be able to take my sleeve off and show who I really am. Ma’am ivy told me that I should never let my insecurity lured me, cause it might lead to slippery slope, but I just cant get the anxiety away..
Molecular Biochemistry. Biostatistics. Principles and Strategies for Population Education. School here I am. Please don’t gobble me, but mold me =)