Sweetest downfall

Isolation is her serenity
Dreams are her vitality
But in his presence she found entirety
His stories gave her objectivity.

She lives in suppression
Self is the only companion
Then his spirit offered emancipation
Leaving her in liberation.

He freed her from loneliness
Handed her awareness
At a moment she thought of happiness
That was vindicated by his existence.

Then amity was shared by two
Growing into deeper awe
Stories that stayed until morning dew
Shaped the compassion before they knew.

Lingering in a world of bizarre
She forgot what realities are
Believing it’s what something she desired
She let her self to be on mire.

Then time of their separation comes
All of what they have goes bum
Memories that was built in world of rum
Forced to be forgotten one by one.

Back to the place where she abode
And standing still with her broken soul
Thinking how gloomy not knowing before
That she fell in love with an idle hope.

Anxiety builds up!

While laying on my bed thinking about my future, I can’t stop the anxiety that’s wandering inside of me. Im a little excited about what’s in store but ended up being uneasy about it. I have lots of dreams on my mind. Example would be I wanted to be a doctor (actually until now), but my mother ended this desire the moment I handed her my diploma from my bachelors degree. She told me that I better have my masters parallel to what I had finished for me to be able to have a great job offered on our field, and after coming on that thought, I think she’s right. Even though my dream on becoming a doctor isn’t already sensible (financial crisis daw. Haha.) my dream of being a successful R-ND is still at hand. (Having a job that gives me the satisfaction, more knowledgeable on my field and syempre a stable job.) So to follow what she had said I started inquiring to the different universities here in the country. But after reading some of the requirements from the Univs where I made inquiries, I came to realized that graduate school isn’t as ordinary as college life. You should be mature enough (both mentally and emotionally) before attending the school. Besides at graduate school, I’ll be dealing with different people and more often, older than me. And this fact gave me the call that I am not ready to enter school again yet. And this point troubles me. My first step to attain my goal isn’t laid out. What should I do?? I’m really stuck with the job that I have right now. But I think I need to have the "more experience" to have that “maturity” I’m looking for.. I really want to work in a hospital. Much of my knowledge is in clinical setting. But I still haven’t had the opportunity to work at any institution.. I’m so damn stuck here. Dreaming to have a perfect life with the perfect job. I know I’m still young for me to attain success with my profession. (young pa ba ang 21) but It seems like my ambition is running away from me, and its really nerve-wracking!